Every year I go through a phase of downtime right around the end of March, beginning of April. I try to figure out where I am and where I want to be. I ponder where I think I can go while I struggle with wanting to just sit and take a nap. I’ve read that our personal cycles renew every year at our birthdays, it’s a starting over point I guess –
I don’t know if this is a bio-rhythm thing or a moon and tide thing or something I made up completely and just think I read. I do know, however, that since I discovered the concept, this time of year has been easier for me to understand and accept – it no longer feels like a fog covered path. I don’t fight the down and up of the season anymore. Instead, I try to ride it out and come away with a new perspective on what I am doing and who I am.
I’m rediscovering the crafty me this year – I think. Instead of fighting for the need to work on websites or build new blogs vs the desire to color and glue and sew… I’m mixing the two. I’m allowing myself to be crafty and play with clay or buy new ribbon. I’ve been playing with designs for fabric and paper cutouts. I’ve realized that sometimes we can work at playing or we can play while we work… as long as I am being creative and the ideas keep flowing, I’m ok with whatever the project is.
Ultimately I would like to grow to the point that I don’t have to rediscover myself, but instead know who I am and merely reiterate where I want to be. For now, I’m happy with the adventure in it all. I’m enjoying meeting new people, thinking through new angles and trying out new paths. I’m especially excited about discovering areas I forgot I loved – and allowing myself the time to not only look into every window that I come across, but rediscover what sits inside.
What are you rediscovering about yourself?