Finding focus, what does that really mean? Last week my focus was so scattered I couldn’t even think of a tuesday topic, and every time I tried, another day had gone by.
I struggle with the idea/concept of focus constantly. Focal point, I get that.. look, see, focus. voila. Yet, as far as real genuine focus goes, I’m never quite sure what to focus on. I love so many different things. So the debate is never what do I want to focus on today for me… it’s always, “what would everyone else like to see today?” or what do I need to do for so-and-so or such-n-such.
And it’s not a priority list issue either. Other than my family, everything can find it’s way to at least #2 on the list at some point… I love to doodle and sew and program and craft and calculate and design and cook and garden and create from absolutely every direction I can. (not to mention daydream, lolligag,sit-n-stare and nap are enjoyable at times too)
This is literally a self created snapshot of my brain… most days
(Keep in mind, this is only one side… it is indeed a 3 dimensional object ~wink)
Now, I don’t mind this view at all. Every moment for me is a potential inspiration for something… “what”, is usually the issue and “when” is usually not planned.
Here’s part of the dilema, but I’m sure it’s intentionally designed this way.
I manage every aspect of my life and business – I am a control freak. Not that I always manage any of it exceptionaly well. I’m just saying I’m the one in charge of it all – but I do try, and that’s the challenge I thrive on. I don’t have employees or contracted help. Everything from family and schedules and activities to business, artistic creation, marketing and even the backend functionality of my websites. I love every bit of all that creativity, even if it is chaos. Of course some things are a lot more fun than others… but it’s never consistant what the “it” is that’s more fun. I like that.
Today, reading blogs and learning something new about someone else is the most fun. Tomorrow I might have the most fun playing legos or creating ice cream cone earrings or maybe I’ll go out and watch the world turn. Who knows.
This is why working for one’s self is so fabulous. Although I hold all the burden, I call the all shots. It’s just too bad I’m such a slave driver and perfectionist (except for grammer and spelling ~wink).
So — Seeing as how I’m having a hard time finding a strong focus of this writing today as well… that’s my point. There is so much I want to do and learn, so much ground I want to cover, so many unknown people I want to cross paths with — I could use some help.
Clue me in when the focus happens, please.
I do know one thing, however; my consistant daily goal is to try to inspire at least one new smile every day… how that happens, with/to/for whom and where, I don’t know… that’s the fun in the challange behind the goal… that’s what keeps the creativity flowing.
So listen to this… I’m also thinking that with all this focus and unfocus and refocus… I’d love to start video blogging and sharing ideas with all of you. So, here’s me thinking it’s a great idea (yes, that is really me). Let see where it goes from here. 😀
Side note: I think another focus for me will be to consolidate many of my scattered thoughts into this one blog and site. Why spread them out when they are all still me?
What’s your focus today? Oh please.. do tell!